Growing Means Learning

By the time you grow up - grow old, you learn that priorities are changing..

When you were teenagers, you don't really care about mother's day, all you can think about is to get along with your besties

When you became a bit mature, early twen'ies, you realized that your problems with mom keeping you far from saying anything sweet to her, You wanted to make her happy, you tried, but you know you were getting nowhere, and that mother's day only made the distance between you two even seemed farther

When you got married, became a wife, wanting for babies, you understand that to be a mother - to feel the feeling doesn't always come with a baby, you know you deserved the mother's day wishing because you know how far you have walked the mother-wannabe journey, but you also know that most of the world doesn't move along in the same rythm with you - aching

When you finally have babies, living your dream - becoming a mother, you suddenly got absorbed into the whole new feeling - new world, that you lost word in describing them, but somehow you know - you realize that there are still women out there who are in your shoes once - longing for babies, yearning to be called mom by cranky sweet little girl or boy who doesn't want to go anywhere without you, and you feel them - you understand them

When you grow older, your children getting bigger, you understand the whole conflict you have with your mom once, why those things must have had happened, and you tried very best to not let your kids have the same experience with you without even realising that your making the same conflict to your children as you once had as a child..

As I grow old, I learned a lot, and I learn life is complicated, and I learn that every decision is on me.